Why are you afraid? Do you still have no faith?
For me, the above verse relates to my current career. My dream was to be a forensic accountant, but I was often told by the very places I had hoped to work in that I had too little or no experience, and was thus rejected. So I worked on gaining experience and called up people in the field and spoke to them.
I got a job in an accounting firm but faced skepticism from the boss, who was shocked that I wanted to go further. She told me that I was looking in the wrong places. She felt that I had trouble relating to people, that I was in the wrong field and that I am autistic and may have Asperger’s syndrome – I was upset and confused. Obviously, she did not confirm me but extended my probation. I left the job after two of my closest friends sounded me out about it.
Around the same time, I spent some time writing an article titled “Signs, Directions and the Occasional Roadblocks” for my parish. It was strangely uplifting and a joyous task. I felt energised again and plunged straight ahead into researching about my dream job.
Nevertheless, I was not looking in the right direction. I took the first job offer and faced obstacles. After 2 weeks, I was again upset, and felt that the environment was not right. I tried to endure, but alas, it did not work out. This time, I prayed. I went to the Divine Mercy sessions and prayed the rosary daily. I prayed the Serenity Prayer which my friend recommended. I told myself that maybe it is not time, so I took my time to apply for jobs but at a slower pace.
One morning I looked and found that there was an opportunity for the position of “Corporate and Credit Insolvency Assistant/Senior”. I read through it, sent my CV in and left it up to Him. I even told myself that if it is His will that I need more experience, I will accept it no matter how hard.
Thereafter, I forgot about my application. After lunch one day, I received a call for an interview for the above position. I was happy yet anxious, and I did not know what to say, especially if they asked for reasons why I should be hired. So I stayed up all night racking my brains for answers.
By God’s grace, I was not asked a single question. All the interviewer did was look at my CV and tell me about the scope of work I would be doing. I told him I was looking to do forensic accounting and he smiled, saying, “Yes, we are doing forensic accounting.”
His next words were, “…What position did you apply for?”
I helpfully volunteered, “…Assistant…”
“But she has experience, ….She has 2 years, she can be a Senior…”
Nothing could have prepared me for that moment. I was given an opportunity just like that. If that was not by God’s mercy, I don’t know what it is.
I am now happily working in my current field and slowly learning on the job. I am very thankful for this opportunity, and yes I now believe that with God, nothing is impossible.
The Serenity Prayer
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time; enjoying one moment at a time;
accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it;
trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will;
that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
and supremely happy with Him forever in the next.